And I don’t know This could break my heart or save me Nothing’s real Until you let go completely So here I go with all my thoughts I’ve been saving So here I go with all my fears weighing on me A year and I’m still sober Picked all my weeds but kept the flowers But I know it’s never really over And I don’t know I could crash and burn but maybe At...
She was good at late night listening When he’d call her on the phone She was good to come and get him When he couldn’t make it home She was good to never ask When he’d be back again She was there on his bad days And for years he led her on We all knew she had a bad case He was doing her all wrong She couldn’t bring herself to do the right thing Break it off and say goodbye Till she...
I’m a little boy with glasses The one they call the geek A little girl who never smiles Bause I’ve got braces on my teeth And I know how it feels To cry myself to sleep. I’m that kid on every playground Who’s always chosen last A single teenage mother Trying to overcome my past You don’t have to be my friend But is it too much to ask? I’m the begger on the corner You’ve pass...
I’m criticized but all your bullets ricochet You shoot me down, but I get up I’m bulletproof, nothing to lose Fire away, fire away Ricochet, you take your aim Fire away, fire away You shoot me down but I won’t fall I am titanium You shoot me down but I won’t fall I am titanium Cut me down But it’s you who’ll have further to fall Ghost town, haunted love Raise your voice, sticks and...
Let the truth pour out Cause you won all the games I won’t lie, no I’m not ok! You were wrong, you’re to blame, Now the world knows your name…
I’m still frustrated from last night Things happened in half-time, I’m sick of the bends My panic research was no help I sink into myself Afraid of the fall that never ends I wait, but I’m too tired to play pretend I’ll suffocate until the end No time for halfhearted goodbyes, I turn to the bottle and flee from the scene Cheap flights from Paris to New York, I thought it was nonstop...
Hello helicopter, are you here to stay? Bodies, rest and motion fighting night and day Well it’s kill or be killed And one day we’ll get the best of them Hello helicopter, will you be my friend? Will you take me away? Hello helicopter, have you heard the news? No one gives a shit about the things they do We all waste and consume, destroy and ruin everything we touch It’s easy not to...
The greatest man I never knew Lived just down the hall And everyday we said hello But never touched at all He was in his paper I was in my room How was I to know he thought I hung the moon The greatest man I never knew Came home late every night He never had too much to say Too much was on his mind I never really knew him And now it seems so sad Everything he gave to us took all he...
Note to self...
I guess you really did it this time Left yourself in your war path Lost your balance on a tightrope Lost your mind trying to get it back Wasn’t it easier in your playground days? Always a bigger bed to crawl into Wasn’t it beautiful when you believed in everything And everybody believed in you? Did some things you can’t speak of but at night you live it all again You wouldn’t be...
Can’t sleep even with the sleeping pills. Nervous for tomorrow, especially after Tuesday. Hopefully this should be the last of it. P.s hay tumblr why do you keep going all funny?
Pain. Sleep. Depression.
Today I got prescribed Amitriptyline, its a painkiller that targets the fine nerve endings. It ranges in dose from 10mgs up to 150mgs. It’s side effects are drowsiness which has caused a lot of doctors to prescribe it as sleeping pill. It has another use, well to be honest its its main use and that is as an antidepressant. Though that’s at the higher end of the dose 100-150mgs. It’s crazy how...
Thank you all for the Bday wishes. They really mean a lot! :)
Ok copenhagen Question 1. what’s with all the taxidermy? I mean like every shop window?? Question 2. What’s with the bathrooms?? No door on the bathroom and glass frosted walls including the shower? I’m here with a friend but we are not that close!!
There is only one thing I wish for today, that’s the chance to fix the broken things around me. Especially the friendships.
Tell a joke, that will distract them. They won’t ask questions. Just be funny. I’m okay…
I’m afrade to say hello incase it’s another goodbye…
To the fucker who stole my purse tonight, keep the cash & card. But at least finish my goal of getting gold membership on my Starbucks card arsehole. FUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCKKKKKKKK.
Time won’t fly, it’s like I’m paralyzed by it. I’d like to be my old self again, but I’m still trying to find it….
Maybe I got lost in translation, maybe I asked for too much. But maybe this was all a masterpiece till I tore it all up. Running scared, I was there, I remember it all too well
I know I set up this blog for creativity but of resent it has drifted far from it. While I am going through the medical treatments and other things this has become by outlet, a place to empty my thought out onto. That girl that always tries to make people smile with her crazy plans and her creativity has got a little lost. Just for now, she is trying to finding her way
Sometimes you lose your keys, sometimes you lose your phone or purse. You can always get them back. But sometimes you lose a part of yourself that you can never replace. You can never get back. Sometimes you just have to accept this and lose the rest of yourself too… -A
Loving him is like driving a new sports car down a dead-end street Faster than the wind, passionate as sin ending so suddenly Loving him is like trying to change your mind once you’re already flying through the free fall Like the colors in autumn, so bright just before they lose it all. Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him...
Back to the hospital for tests tomorrow. No sleep tonight.