May 2013
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Sober
And I don’t know
This could break my heart or save me
Nothing’s real
Until you let go completely
So here I go with all my thoughts I’ve been saving
So here I go with all my fears weighing on me
A year and I’m still sober
Picked all my weeds but kept the flowers
But I know it’s never really over
And I don’t know
I could crash and burn but maybe
At...
April 2013
1 post
She was good at late night listening
When he’d call her on the phone
She was good to come and get him
When he couldn’t make it home
She was good to never ask
When he’d be back again
She was there on his bad days
And for years he led her on
We all knew she had a bad case
He was doing her all wrong
She couldn’t bring herself to do the right thing
Break it off and say goodbye
Till she...
March 2013
2 posts
MW
I’m a little boy with glasses
The one they call the geek
A little girl who never smiles
Bause I’ve got braces on my teeth
And I know how it feels
To cry myself to sleep.
I’m that kid on every playground
Who’s always chosen last
A single teenage mother
Trying to overcome my past
You don’t have to be my friend
But is it too much to ask?
I’m the begger on the corner
You’ve pass...
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January 2013
2 posts
Titanium
I’m criticized but all your bullets ricochet
You shoot me down, but I get up
I’m bulletproof, nothing to lose
Fire away, fire away
Ricochet, you take your aim
Fire away, fire away
You shoot me down but I won’t fall I am titanium
You shoot me down but I won’t fall I am titanium
Cut me down
But it’s you who’ll have further to fall
Ghost town, haunted love
Raise your voice, sticks and...
Let the truth pour out
Cause you won all the games
I won’t lie, no I’m not ok!
You were wrong, you’re to blame,
Now the world knows your name…
December 2012
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Last night...
I’m still frustrated from last night
Things happened in half-time, I’m sick of the bends
My panic research was no help
I sink into myself
Afraid of the fall that never ends
I wait, but I’m too tired to play pretend
I’ll suffocate until the end
No time for halfhearted goodbyes,
I turn to the bottle and flee from the scene
Cheap flights from Paris to New York,
I thought it was nonstop...
Hello Helicopter
Hello helicopter, are you here to stay?
Bodies, rest and motion fighting night and day
Well it’s kill or be killed
And one day we’ll get the best of them
Hello helicopter, will you be my friend?
Will you take me away?
Hello helicopter, have you heard the news?
No one gives a shit about the things they do
We all waste and consume, destroy and ruin everything we touch
It’s easy not to...
The greatest man I never knew
Lived just down the hall
And everyday we said hello
But never touched at all
He was in his paper
I was in my room
How was I to know he thought I hung the moon
The greatest man I never knew
Came home late every night
He never had too much to say
Too much was on his mind
I never really knew him
And now it seems so sad
Everything he gave to us took all he...
November 2012
61 posts
Note to self...
I guess you really did it this time
Left yourself in your war path
Lost your balance on a tightrope
Lost your mind trying to get it back
Wasn’t it easier in your playground days?
Always a bigger bed to crawl into
Wasn’t it beautiful when you believed in everything
And everybody believed in you?
Did some things you can’t speak of but at night you live it all again
You wouldn’t be...
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Can’t sleep even with the sleeping pills. Nervous for tomorrow, especially after Tuesday. Hopefully this should be the last of it.
P.s hay tumblr why do you keep going all funny?
Pain. Sleep. Depression.
Today I got prescribed Amitriptyline, its a painkiller that targets the fine nerve endings. It ranges in dose from 10mgs up to 150mgs. It’s side effects are drowsiness which has caused a lot of doctors to prescribe it as sleeping pill.
It has another use, well to be honest its its main use and that is as an antidepressant. Though that’s at the higher end of the dose 100-150mgs.
It’s crazy how...
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Thank you all for the Bday wishes. They really mean a lot! :)
Ok copenhagen
Question 1. what’s with all the taxidermy? I mean like every shop window??
Question 2. What’s with the bathrooms?? No door on the bathroom and glass frosted walls including the shower? I’m here with a friend but we are not that close!!
There is only one thing I wish for today, that’s the chance to fix the broken things around me. Especially the friendships.
Tell a joke, that will distract them. They won’t ask questions.
Just be funny. I’m okay…
I’m afrade to say hello incase it’s another goodbye…
To the fucker who stole my purse tonight, keep the cash & card. But at least finish my goal of getting gold membership on my Starbucks card arsehole.
FUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCKKKKKKKK.
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Time won’t fly, it’s like I’m paralyzed by it.
I’d like to be my old self again, but I’m still trying to find it….
Maybe I got lost in translation, maybe I asked for too much.
But maybe this was all a masterpiece till I tore it all up.
Running scared, I was there, I remember it all too well
I know I set up this blog for creativity but of resent it has drifted far from it.
While I am going through the medical treatments and other things this has become by outlet, a place to empty my thought out onto.
That girl that always tries to make people smile with her crazy plans and her creativity has got a little lost.
Just for now, she is trying to finding her way
Sometimes you lose your keys, sometimes you lose your phone or purse. You can always get them back. But sometimes you lose a part of yourself that you can never replace. You can never get back.
Sometimes you just have to accept this and lose the rest of yourself too…
-A
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Red
Loving him is like driving a new sports car down a dead-end street
Faster than the wind, passionate as sin ending so suddenly
Loving him is like trying to change your mind once you’re already flying through the free fall
Like the colors in autumn, so bright just before they lose it all.
Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you
Memorizing him...
Back to the hospital for tests tomorrow.
No sleep tonight.
